shadows gone

shadows gone??

day off
free from
from the shadows
a break from fear

confidence is power
floating
yet grounded
maturity without fear
productive determination
taking the lead   

a social wantabe’s
day dream
communication; so easy
surviving
without back up
you're in it alone
and
loving it

strong
loving life
unstoppable energy
put to good use
toughness - unbroken
breakable as steal

professional
unknown experience
worked into the light
gathering energy
questioning
finding answers
together

think
what’s the difference?
why today?
what has reset my personality?
is this my control
or
someone else?
whatever it is
i like it

confusion
where are they?
shadows
haunting, fear
you were so at home
with the rock
holding you back

no more hiding
haunting terror- gone
your undercontrol
controlling
mind & body
fully
authority; your own

back up; no need
simplicity
is survival
no security measures
cling to lifelines
why


how to act
driven to take charge
subconsciously
knowing
the insistent, ever pressing drive
take full advantage  
of this new glory

you
now in the drivers seat
no longer a struggle
backseat driver; no more
like
oil added to rusty gears
your remade
like new


however
nothing is forever
you can fix a broken char
which glue
doesn't matter
some time
sooner or later
your char will break again

out of so many
one question, stands alone
how long?
minutes, hours, days, weeks
until its gone
professional control
a limited luxury

when the last drop is gone
the nightmare returns
nothing is stable
ask as you may
for
pure pleasure
to stay


all who listens
will surely hear
that painful cry
when courage leaves
and the shadows return